Haulin' 'ell

Hey Guys, I know I've been a bit MIA as of late (part of the reason can be found in my previous post), not only have I been dealing with some personal issues, but I have finally got a new job.

Today just felt like a shopping kind of day. I had saved some money up for some necessities and some little treats and decided that today was the day to get them. So I had a drive into town in my little car and loaded up the back seat with goodies.

First stop was obviously going to be Lush! The new Christmas stuff came out on Friday 3rd and I just had to have a good sniff. I'll post a full review of everything I bought at a later date.

Northern Lights Bath Bomb £3.50

Wizard Bubble Bar £3.25

Holly Go Lightly Bubble Bar £4.75

FUN Snowman Kit £5.00

Yog Nog Soap £3.40 100g

Next stop was Primark. I recently saw Helen Melonlady haul an absolutely fabulous jumper, and I knew I needed it.

SS Candy Popcorn £14.00

From New Look, I desperately wanted a blanket wrap, and I found this lovely Aztec Print one.

Aztec Wrap £19.99

Finally I went to Boots, as I was running dangerously low on conditioner and hair treatment. Also my skin has been at it's absolute worst lately, so I wanted to pick up some new products to try out. I'll let you know how I get on.

Lee Stafford Hair Growth Treatment £8.49

Lee Stafford Hair Growth Conditioner £7.49

Avene Thermal Spring Water Spray £3.50

Clean and Clear Advantage Spot Control Moisturiser £4.49

Soap and Glory Fab Pore 2 in 1 Pore Purifying Mask and Peel £10.00

I'll let you know how I get on with the new skin products, keep your fingers crossed for me.

BYEEEEEE xxxxx

My Anxiety Struggle

I've been debating whether to write this post for a while, and I'm still not entirely sure if or when i'll post it. So for now this post will be my outlet of emotions and explanations and feelings, which if published, will hopefully be of some help to someone. It will be a ramble, and there won't be a structure of any sort, I'll just write when I have something to write.

A few months ago I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder, although I had been suffering silently for quite some time. I confided in a few friends, but it didn't really help, as the last thing I wanted was for everyone to tiptoe around me, so I played it down.
I began to consider seeking medical help when hearing 'cheer up' all became too much to handle. 
I was suffering from panic attacks more frequently than I cared to admit, and it wasn't until I had a particularly bad one whilst at work that I finally bit the bullet and went to see a doctor.
FYI the single worse thing you can ever say to someone suffering from panic attacks is 'what do you have to panic about?'

One of the things i struggle with is not being in control of situations, it puts me really on edge and I get super antsy.

My new philosophy on life is that if something doesn't make you happy, then don't so it. So although currently I have no clear path in life, for me that's better than being on the wrong one. I've decided that if something makes me happy, then I don't care what anyone else thinks. It might sound selfish, but I'm putting myself first. 

I'm currently finding comfort in girl time, pampering, chick flicks and wine, as well as learning to drive, which I'm really enjoying.

A big thing for me at the moment is learning to love my body. I know I am overweight and i know I can lose weight if I really try, but dieting just doesn't make me happy. So for now, I am focusing on being happy with the way I look at the moment, and wearing clothes that make me feel like myself. It's quite a challenge at times but I'm feeling much better for doing it. Other people can think what they want about my figure, my style, my hair or my makeup, as long as I'm happy then there opinion is redundant. 


I have recently been taking a break from blogging for a little while, but will do my best to get back to it as soon as possible.